This poem first appeared in Mom Egg Review


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Why I Became an English Teacher                                                     

When I read Maggie:
          A Girl of the Streets
                    in 11th grade English,
my teacher told me
          the yellow in the story
                    could only signify
decay, as in rotting
          teeth, as in the streetlamp
                    glow bathing
the young prostitute.
          She told me it was
                    ever thus, yellow used
by all writers to symbolize
          only this one state
                    or action. Drenched
in melancholy, swathed
          in sadness
                    not sunlight.
But what of the yellow ochre
          horses dancing
                    across Lascaux
Cave? What of the finch
          flashing through
                    the bush? The sun-
colored cabs in New York
          City are yellow,
                    the easiest color
for the eye to spot.
          When Ilene Woods
                    sang Cinderella in
the Disney movie, she
          hesitated before
with herself, unsure her
          voice would fit
                    beside itself, slip
inside the folds,
          a stockinged
                    foot into
a slipper. What if she hadn’t
          cracked open
                    that egg
to explore the yolky
          richness of her
                    inherent harmony?
That song would be lost now,
          amidst the hearth
                    cinders and mice.
I’ve spent my life writing
          belonging and joy
                    in yellow tones,
declaring dandelion
          a flower
                    not a weed,
the ball of sun, Italian ice
          from the silver cart,
                    pollen like summer
snow, the silken, sticky
          hair inside the husks
                    of corn.
Perhaps she was partly right.
          Maybe I just
                    didn’t want
to dwell on Maggie’s
          ruined mouth,
                    the yellow
beam of a spotlight
          to draw men’s eyes
                    to her, moths
bent on burning
          inside a flickering
how her crushed girlhood
          leaned against
                    that iron post.

This poem first appeared in The Dandelion Review


Mass on the Mammogram

If inside a soft place grows a
firm and alien thing, how to go
back to the time when biting
into a peach brought happiness?
Intentional poison will light up
your lymph nodes till you are
a radioactive filament, till
the branches of your tree are
stripped of fruit, the mill
of your imagination grinding out
terrible grain, and on your plate,
a meal you cannot taste.
Like that apple. It was easy
to eat until thinking back on it
later, linking it to what slipped
through fingers without knowing
it had been held there.
The way a pit settles in a palm
and fingers form a fist around it.
Wrinkled little bomb, remnant
of sweetness. Loss always does
this. Leaves behind a stone.

This poem first appeared in The Dandelion Review



               we / do not admire what / we cannot understand
                                                                                          – Marianne Moore

I admire, deeply, the wolf under the tree,
the way she repeats her tight ellipses
over and again, a skater training on a rink.
Her path is sure. She doesn’t need to deviate,
until she does. Her neck, craned to one side,
allows her to look at what has tried to escape
her in the branches. What hides above
is bigger than she is, made bigger than that
by darkness and shadow, but it smells good,
so she doesn’t care. Night falls, and still
the wearing of a track into the dirt beneath
her paws. On her side, an old scar amidst the
silver-gray. Why wouldn’t I understand her
hunger, her steadfast pursuit? Why wouldn’t
I want what she has, what she wants?


I admire the pushing elephants, the way they
plunge as one into the mud to save a single
calf. Ears flutter as they turn to check that
they are all together in this, and down they go,
trying to fish him out from underneath with their
trunks. And they do it, too, without language,
without machines. They also mourn their dead
and visit their bones. In their biggest brains,
they store for later what has passed them by.
They know mortality, placing fallen leaves on
top of it. I understand how death has us trying to
blanket loss. I, too, know the way the place
of loss becomes the loss. But I want to recognize
myself in mirrors placed before me. For tusks
to curl like ivory swords right out of my face.

This poem first appeared in The Dandelion Review


Strange Fruit

Where the plows can’t reach
snow crusts brick tenements in
a black-and-white photograph.
Outside the apartments
streetlamps glow like twin moons,
as if belonging to another solar system,
one where Billie Holiday didn’t die.
Still, the thin blade of her voice
keeps slicing, fragile and honeyed,
transporting me to a closet-sized
chamber redolent with beeswax,
illuminated by a single bare bulb
swinging from its cord.

This poem first appeared in Brilliant Corners


Alita Darcy

Thinking of her now, that thirteen-year-old girl who died by
smacking into a moving box truck at the bottom of Haskell Street
when her bike brakes failed, I don’t think of her as much as I think
of our music teacher, Mr. Dunn, and how exasperated he’d get
with Alita when she came to chorus and put her feet up on the row
of chairs in front of her, leaned back, heavy with attitude, crossed
her arms, and fixed him with her haughty stare until he’d look
away, unsure of how to bridle her, she who never did her
homework, talked back and snapped her gum, said the F-word
under her breath, she who I looked up to with awe, her seventh
grader to my sixth seeming a world away, and I think of the other
girl on the back of the bike, nameless to me now, the one who
jumped off in time when Alita lost control, and how she must have
felt guilty to be glad for her life, and I think of my own son, the
same age now, and how he is just a boy, and so she must have been
just a girl, and not the powerhouse I made her, her hard surface
probably hiding hurt beneath, and maybe Mr. Dunn wasn’t the
hypocrite I thought when he cried for her after she was gone,
perhaps he saw her as the child she was and mourned for the way
he lost their staring contests, wishing he’d had the fortitude to
make her flinch when he still could, make her lower her long legs
in those two-toned jeans, make her throw out her gum and behave
so that she wouldn’t be the kind of girl to joyride down the steepest
hill in town carrying a friend behind her on the banana seat, daring
someone to call her bluff, no sense knocked into her yet, no fear.

This poem first appeared in Naugatuck River Review


Late October Light

I didn’t know light
could be so devoid of warmth, shallow splash in the pan, empty rush
for gold, how much can catch on a single strand, strung between the legs
of the wicker chair and the metal chair, one that wove a basket on my back
in summer, the other searing a waffle of diamonds across my thigh
in early fall
when days washed in this much brightness had us wearing little,
keeping down our guard, shoulders loose, lemonade at our lips still,
and raspberries.


The whole season turned down
an octave, the day still Technicolor bright, heightened but chill. Crisp
shadow of knuckle and pen point on paper, the implement’s tip.
School bus shudders at the stop sign, fat squirrels trapeze the lilacs,
overturn fallen leaves, nose and paw the mulch, dogs looking
for buried bones.
Sun catches on silken threads spun out overnight. These days
hold steady above freezing, not bitter enough to down
the webs.


The flies are still
abundant, a singular beetle roams the patio, each brick pock-marked
and ragged, each divot evident in the wash of late afternoon sun,
white light, a clarity, premonition of cold, warning shivers the grass,
V of geese a solitaire variation spread across blue and thinning clouds,
the cards are dealt,
laid out flush upon the table, as sure a winning hand as the fact
that winter waits around the corner, it’s just not clear when
the snow will fly.


The sound of squirrels
doing their DNA chase up the trunk of the Norway maple,
a crazed clattering, dry fingers stirring empty shells in a wooden bowl,
the way Aunt Betty’s mauve-tipped fingers cracked and drained pistachios,
clicked the counter as she fished for vocabulary, always half
in pursuit
of twenty-three down, eleven across, half in the world of surfaces,
of Pall Malls, of hunger. Like her, I advance my pen, click fingers
across keys, can’t get lost in the hunt, the season
pulls me back in, dinner needs making, the yard needs raking,
a dog barks to be
let out, my neighbor stuffs leaves into a bag, compresses them
smaller and smaller, cleaning tines fast as she can, racing against
the light.

This poem first appeared in Bookwoman, and won the 2013 Women’s National Book Association Poetry Award, judged by Molly Peacock



                       for Carl Russo

Your smiling face floats above the crease,
your unfinished business, unfinished,
the ink of your life smudging fingers across town.

This same fall, the 60th anniversary of Charlotte’s Web.
Narrating, E.B. White’s voice cracked at the death of the spider.
It took him seventeen takes to record the end without tears.

It isn’t easy to lose an unlikely ally, someone who
lived with you in a little painted village on a shell
in a world with the yolk blown out.

This poem first appeared in Silkworm


  • Laurie Robertson-Lorant

    I haven’t seen your recent poems, but as I wrote last year (or whenever it was), I found your poems beautifully balanced between exploration and discovery. I haven’t seen your “Wellfleet” yet, but here is one of my old Wellfleet poems. A very odd occurrence is what prompted me to contact you now. A couple of days ago I found “TAHLEQUAH OK” with no message on my phone. That name meant nothing to me so I goggled to investigate, and I discovered this website and your marvelous poem “TahleQuah” (I hope that’s the correct spelling. I’ll lose this page if I try to check on it.) Can there be any connection? Congratulations on your wonderful poems and thanks for sharing them.
    Warm best wishes, Laurie


    raw membrane, soft and viscous
    steel-valved shell
    my blood, salt water
    my pulse, the moon-drawn tide

    I swallow sand
    that scrapes my tender skin
    bathing grit in brine
    to form a precious pearl…

    L. R-L.

    • Rebecca Hart Olander

      Thanks, Laurie! I appreciate your comments on my work, and that you shared your own! I included just an excerpt from what you sent because when you post a poem online it is considered “published” and I wanted to protect your right to do so in its entirety in the future. As for “Tahlequah,” I do have a poem about the orca who carried her calf for 17 days after the calf died, and that is the name of the poem and of the orca. Her story captured the attention of the country, so I am sure we’re thinking abut the same Tahlequah. Thanks again for your message!

  • Barry DeCarli


    I just discovered your website here. While taking a break from nothing that truly needed a break taken, I read a few of your poems. Having done that, I feel resolved of my need to more today, but maybe, I will work on a poem that’s had lines bouncing around in my head for weeks.

    Anyway, your poem that stood out for me here, of the few I’ve read so far, is “Why I Became an English Teacher .” I was happy to read that the poet had a more imaginative view, a more expansive experience allowing that we all see things differently and that would be a more exciting way to release the creativity of students. For a teacher to limit the way a poem/story is interpreted by an individual who reads these lines dismisses any other meaning that a reader may have found and brought to the poem.

    “…the yellow in the story
    could only signify
    decay, as in rotting
    teeth, as in the streetlamp
    glow bathing
    the young prostitute….”

    And , the rest of your poem proves that yellow has so much more to offer even here,

    “…as in the streetlamp
    glow bathing
    the young prostitute…”

    We can see her in a softer, more hopeful light. Maybe.

    “Perhaps she was partly right.”

  • Rebecca Hart Olander

    Thank you so much, Marjorie, for reading and for reaching out to say so. That was such a powerful story – I love that so many writers responded in their own ways to the singular story, making it not so singular after all. I was honored to have my poem in the book FOR LOVE OF ORCAS (wanderingaenguspress.com), an anthology about the Southern Resident orcas, Chinook salmon, and their ecosystem, which benefits The SeaDoc Society in support of their efforts to save these two endangered populations and their habitat. My piece swims amidst many other poetic tributes to this mother and her calf, and orcas in general, and part of the beauty of the book is in the variety of response (and, of course, its mission). Thanks again for your comment, and best to you and your work!

  • Marjorie Moorhead

    I read your poem “Tahlequah” in my Twitter wanderings. Stunning. Brought back all the sorrow and appreciation that story stirred in me. I also wrote of the mother orca mourning her daughter..but not as well as you have! I am inspired to go back to my poem for polishing though. Thank you:)

  • Lori Goodwin

    Rebecca we went to college at the same time and your poetry is, I see, still stellar! I remember you had a locally published poem that I fell in love with that still reverberates in my brain today – it’s called Little God. One set of lines in particular still slay me-
    “Ambition is a solid 9 – 5
    and a book with his name all over it.
    Pausing at the top of this hill he decides
    against both sides.
    The hill is a bathtub toy
    bobbing up and down on land.
    He is exposed on this terrain.
    It is all he can do to make himself
    horizontal, to write the lines that cross the page.”

    So good!

    • rebecca hart olander

      Lori! This is the kindest comment ever! Thanks so much for reading my work and for remembering my long-ago work. What are the chances!?! I’m floored and feeling grateful. I hope this finds you well and still writing yourself!

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